Snow Lord? I thought we talked about no snow until we got our 4 wheel drive van......
Yep, I had to smile this morning. God knows me better than I know myself. I slept some last night and didn't sleep some last night. Max called me this morning, his therapist was late to do his range of motion, then he will be waiting for Jenny to help him learn to dress himself. As much self control as I have....I am curious as to what he's learning. It will be harder when he calls after his therapies and has nothing to do. What are the odds I couldn't stay home 1 day? LOL! I do miss him....it's funny, I think this is the longest time we have had together. Even when he was off taking his treatment he was out and about when he felt good enough.
So this gave me a new perspective this morning. Obviously God didn't answer my first prayer....no snow. Hmmmm, does that make him a bad God because he didn't answer my prayer? We walk, we talk, I thought we were tight God..... I think it's sorta like one of those instances when your best friend gets in your face and says "What are you doing? You know that _____ is bad for you (fill in the blank for yourself). I don't care if your angry, I see more than you see right now and it's bad for you." Now some of you may not have been there before, but there are several times I thought I was making the right decision but in the long run it was a horrible decision.
I can see today that Max and I need this time apart. It's not easy, I really don't like it but in the long run it will make our life together better. Dependence on anything but God will eventually cause resentment. I pray that I remember that God is my best friend and will always do what is good for me whether I can see the results right away or not. God doesn't cause the painful things that happen but he can pick up the pieces and put them back together in a way that is more beautiful. I see sheets of beautifully colored glass. Large expanses let in colored light...if those sheets are shattered, there are just useless pieces. If all you can long for is the large sheets of glass, the pieces are just painful reminders of what is not. If you put those pieces in the hands of a craftsman, you have stunning works of art that not only let in the colored light like they did in the first place but are dazzling because the richness of all the colors combined in a picture that couldn't have been crafted out of one sheet of glass. Let go of your pieces that are piercing your hands as you hold them tight, let God shape your life into something so dazzling you can't imagine it!
Max has therapy this morning,
spinal cord group 11-12,
Group circuit training 1-2
Another therapy 3-4?
Dinner is usually at 5:00 so he's usually free after 5:00.
Enjoy the snow, enjoy your day. Know that God who started a God work in you will finish what he started!