Wanted to capture a few thoughts before the days blows those thoughts away like wisps of smoke.
This morning we were doing personal care tasks that are not that wonderful to do. Max commented on just what you want to do on your birthday. I quipped back I definately hadn't planned on doing this on my birthday as I looked forward last year.
As I was thinking about how life has changed, how life in general you never know what is going to happen. I wondered if people would be happy living their life without the painful things. For starters it would shorten most of our life spans at least in half if not shorter.
In general for every joyful moment, there will be painful moments.....Marriage - wedding are a mountain top (well at least for the brides!) deciding how to raise children & finances are usually not mountain top experience, sometimes they can be quite painful.
Children - wonderful to have, can be painful to raise. Friends - nothing can replace them when they are there when you need them, nothing is as painful as a friend who hurts you through actions or words. Well, you get the picture....
It would be hard to have one without the other. If you only had wonderful experiences and no pain you wouldn't be able to have empathy for those who are experiencing it. You wouldn't have sympathy because you couldn't understand it.
Most of my "0" birthdays have not been exactly where I wanted to be.
When I turned 20 I was still mourning and running from the death of my fiance who died when I was 18. You can't see those things until your older and wiser. I thought I was just having fun ~ trying to kill myself with alchohol poisoning.
When I turned 30 I had Ray ~ he was barely 2 months old. I had no clue what I was doing or how to raise that baby!
When I turned 40 my Mom was 3 months into a 6 month battle with cancer that claimed her life. She was so sick but rested in the Lord.
Now today when I turn 50 Max has this injury that requires us all to do different things than what we are used to.
Would I give up the painful things in my life? No way! If I chose to do that I wouldn't have had a sister who was taken away by a drunk driver. If I had chose that I wouldn't have loved and lost. If I had chose that I wouldn't have had many friends who have enriched my life, character and overall growth because we are human and sometimes unintentionaly hurt those we love. Friends who have died, loved ones who have passed on, bad choices, good choices that go wrong.....all of these things make me who I am. God can use the things of this world, my choices and make me blossom in the desert places. He can give me joy in the storm, he can give me a voice to help others.
I'm no saint, Max makes me uncomfortable when he says God sent him an angel. I'm just a gal who with the grace of God is able to enjoy the good times, and not drown in the bad times. Because in the end they are all good as we are breathing and choosing praise!
So I say bring on the next 10 years!! Thank you Lord for the years you have blessed me with and the years you have blessed Max with. We will walk this path hand & hand, skipping on the beach and slugging away through the thorns.
May your day be blessed, and as cliche as it sounds, take time to count your blessings ~ they will out weigh the yucky stuff that may be going on.